its time to realize

its time to realize

why?

call it destiny.

its time to wake up for anything at all. why can I just stuck and saw you for another eye that u have been to being loved with ur girlf. and i am like a porselin.
now and then. shouldn't yesterday? nope. my heart still goes away to searching and found better, but its same nothing at all. finally, i am realize.

don't you. don't you.

i was forget you, i am do everything just to reject you on my mind. deadactive all of my social network, just to hope that i'll haven't place to search you in internet access. or i am join for cooking class, biola, piano, ballet, buy so many dvd for a rest time and i don't have time to thinking of you.

but i am totally wrong. 

you're my first love. yes, you're.

you're my everlasting, endless, are you?

like ice,  can melted and can freezer again.

i am not tired anymore, i am not sad, i am not angry at you.

i lose you, my biggest enemy. i lose you at all. everyone says "understanding please" but how? where is to me to understanding? i am try and i am do. i let you to find another girls better, and we see that you CAN. so? so? how i can't do like you do? how can i realize that i was possible to love someone too much, but maybe it is. i never thought. 

sometimes you have gotta let go, realize, understanding, careless, useless, hopeless. 
one thing, wherever, whenever, u want me. i am still here. still. always. and will be. 

forget about my last posting and blah blah blah. 

hear it, no one can touch my heart.

NOWADAYS, JUST LET IT GO

After a quite-long-time being the 'forgotten' one. i knew that i will always love you and i couldn't to changed it. nowadays just let it go. 

You had thought that is the best for you, i can feel you. how can we're messed up that we know we still loving each other? can u tell me, is the end? over. its over, dude. 

Feel like I'm waiting for something that isn't going to happen, if happened. you're my dream. and i am a lover. For me, its better to just quietly miss someone rather than to let them know and get no response. nowadays, just let go.

Someday, i hope theres someone over out there stays up until 2a.m thinking about me. hears a certain song he thinks about me. thinks about things to say to me every morning. feels better to saw my smile. if song lyric remind him of me. he looks at me when I'm not looking at him. i hope, someday its can to be happen. nowadays just let it go. 

I THINK I LOVE YOU

honestly, i don't really care and i don't mind and i don't need to someone who always say 'how are you?' 'i love you' 'i miss you' 'i need you' 'i want you' or whatever lah. i just want someone that who always in my beside, quietly, no one words skated, just always keep me and i am being the only one for him. just it,  harder? nope. 


nowadays just let it go. 

werewolf, i am in love

i miss us old, when i can't stop talking at you, when i had so much story to sharin with you, when you always in my beside, when i miss you, i see you every second i want, when you're my best friend, when you're my lovers, when you're my biggest enemy..

i don't know why and how i can in love with you, you suck, you bad, you cold like ice, but i know it. you warm inside. i love you.

you love me, at least, we can't together. we can't together. we can't together. repeat slowly. i realize at the first time i met you. its my fault to know you so far.

i dont wanna be like your 'girls' i am wannabe the girl who can u take me as you're place to sharin, to loved, to feel ur kiss, to hug every time, to accept just the way you're. i do. i do before you want.

so right, so far away from you know. you back again to be playboy. and i am back to me, girls who had stone hearted like everyone known.

should to you know, if someday i'll fallen in love again with another guy, the feeling is was different like with you. its not all the same. you always and usually have the best deep quietly part of my heart.

i love you my mysterious guy.
hello my werewolf,
i am in love.

Boys Will Be Boys

some people's say: women's heart is mysterious. enough. boys are.
dari kebanyakan laki2 yang curhat sama cewek, mereka hanya sekedar 'meminta' saran. sedangkan, disaat mereka cerita tentang perasaan mereka sama teman laki2nya, disitulah mereka sebenernya dapat menceritakan apa yang sesungguhnya dirasa. bedanya sih, cewek lebih lebay. lebih cepet galau. lebih kepo. dan lebih nggak penting.

kenapasih cowok hobi mainin cewek? kenapasih cowok kayaknya bangga banget jadi playboy? kenapasih cowok nggak pernah peka? kenapasih kenapasih.....honestly, boys just need girls attention and trusting. they've a reason, but we (girl) like usually not believe or just saying like this, 'ah apaansih,alibi banget'
can stopped? cewek dan cowok itu beda cara berfikirnya, beda cara menanggapi, beda cara mengerti. kadang, kita harus sama2 dewasa.