its time to realize

its time to realize

why?

call it destiny.

its time to wake up for anything at all. why can I just stuck and saw you for another eye that u have been to being loved with ur girlf. and i am like a porselin.
now and then. shouldn't yesterday? nope. my heart still goes away to searching and found better, but its same nothing at all. finally, i am realize.

don't you. don't you.

i was forget you, i am do everything just to reject you on my mind. deadactive all of my social network, just to hope that i'll haven't place to search you in internet access. or i am join for cooking class, biola, piano, ballet, buy so many dvd for a rest time and i don't have time to thinking of you.

but i am totally wrong. 

you're my first love. yes, you're.

you're my everlasting, endless, are you?

like ice,  can melted and can freezer again.

i am not tired anymore, i am not sad, i am not angry at you.

i lose you, my biggest enemy. i lose you at all. everyone says "understanding please" but how? where is to me to understanding? i am try and i am do. i let you to find another girls better, and we see that you CAN. so? so? how i can't do like you do? how can i realize that i was possible to love someone too much, but maybe it is. i never thought. 

sometimes you have gotta let go, realize, understanding, careless, useless, hopeless. 
one thing, wherever, whenever, u want me. i am still here. still. always. and will be. 

forget about my last posting and blah blah blah. 

hear it, no one can touch my heart.

NOWADAYS, JUST LET IT GO

After a quite-long-time being the 'forgotten' one. i knew that i will always love you and i couldn't to changed it. nowadays just let it go. 

You had thought that is the best for you, i can feel you. how can we're messed up that we know we still loving each other? can u tell me, is the end? over. its over, dude. 

Feel like I'm waiting for something that isn't going to happen, if happened. you're my dream. and i am a lover. For me, its better to just quietly miss someone rather than to let them know and get no response. nowadays, just let go.

Someday, i hope theres someone over out there stays up until 2a.m thinking about me. hears a certain song he thinks about me. thinks about things to say to me every morning. feels better to saw my smile. if song lyric remind him of me. he looks at me when I'm not looking at him. i hope, someday its can to be happen. nowadays just let it go. 

I THINK I LOVE YOU

honestly, i don't really care and i don't mind and i don't need to someone who always say 'how are you?' 'i love you' 'i miss you' 'i need you' 'i want you' or whatever lah. i just want someone that who always in my beside, quietly, no one words skated, just always keep me and i am being the only one for him. just it,  harder? nope. 


nowadays just let it go.