its time to realize

its time to realize

why?

call it destiny.

its time to wake up for anything at all. why can I just stuck and saw you for another eye that u have been to being loved with ur girlf. and i am like a porselin.
now and then. shouldn't yesterday? nope. my heart still goes away to searching and found better, but its same nothing at all. finally, i am realize.

don't you. don't you.

i was forget you, i am do everything just to reject you on my mind. deadactive all of my social network, just to hope that i'll haven't place to search you in internet access. or i am join for cooking class, biola, piano, ballet, buy so many dvd for a rest time and i don't have time to thinking of you.

but i am totally wrong. 

you're my first love. yes, you're.

you're my everlasting, endless, are you?

like ice,  can melted and can freezer again.

i am not tired anymore, i am not sad, i am not angry at you.

i lose you, my biggest enemy. i lose you at all. everyone says "understanding please" but how? where is to me to understanding? i am try and i am do. i let you to find another girls better, and we see that you CAN. so? so? how i can't do like you do? how can i realize that i was possible to love someone too much, but maybe it is. i never thought. 

sometimes you have gotta let go, realize, understanding, careless, useless, hopeless. 
one thing, wherever, whenever, u want me. i am still here. still. always. and will be.